Fade to Black
Pen, ink and wash, crayon
12 x 9 in.
For the majority of my life I have suffered from a severe lack of confidence and overwhelming self-doubt, which evolved into depression by the time I entered high school. I always felt like an outcast, that despite my many friends, there was nowhere I belonged. The fear of being labeled as a "mental case" kept me from expressing these feelings with anyone. Strongly in denial, I ignored my better judgment and did not seek the help I needed. My depression ate away at me like acid everyday. It rocked me to my core. Whenever anything went wrong, no matter how insignificant, I viewed it as a punishment from God. I thought I had done something in my past which justified this misery. I escaped in music as I spilled my heart into drawings and filled sketchbooks with images of my darkness. For almost a year now, I have managed to contain this blackness but at times I feel it tearing my insides and trying to escape. This exhibition details my self-induced isolation.
Roos, Scott, “Fade to Black,” Lewis & Clark Senior Art, accessed October 6, 2015, https://library.lclark.edu/seniorprojects/items/show/1541.